Day 1 – a clear path to a shrouded destination

As the opening post of this blog, I want to explain who I am and why I have started a blog.

I am a male alcoholic in his mid-20s who has done substantial damage to my body from drinking. It has gone far enough that my liver function is impacted, and I may not recover. Aside from that, I am a fitness nut, videogame lover, and food enthusiast. My purpose in starting this blog is multifaceted. First and foremost, I want to log my recovery or decline – hence the title of the blog – by posting daily logs of what is happening to me and how I am coping. I hope that this will be cathartic and keep me honest about staying off the alcohol. Additionally, I would love to have someone else take something useful away from my musings. Finally, if a liver transplant becomes my only option, you must show that you can go at least 60 days sans alcohol to get on the transplant list.

In order to get healthy, I have outlined the following three component recovery plan:

PART 1: Nutrition. No one can get healthy if they eat a poor diet. As a scientist I am drawn to a diet based on evolutionary history, biology, and science. In light of this, I plan on following a real food, anti-inflammatory diet with the following adjustments.

Exclusions and Limitations:

  • No grains, whole or otherwise. Grains are filled with compounds that are minor toxins, called phytates, as well as compounds that bind to certain micronutrients and keep them from being absorbed, called lectins. Since I am basically injured and trying to recover, I need all the micros I can get. Grains also contain gluten, which has been shown to cause all kinds of gut issues. I have enough of that already.
  • Heavily reduced legume consumption. All legumes must also be cooked at a very high heat and preferably fermented. These foods also contain lectins that require heat and/or pressure to break down.
  • No sugar. Insulin is the hormone that regulates blood glucose and its deposition into fat tissue, muscles, and the liver. Eating sugar causes an insulin spike that will result in a high workload for the liver. I really don’t want that. This rule includes table sugar, raw sugar, syrups, molasses, honey, and agave nectar – which actually has more fructose than high fructose corn syrup.
  • Heavily reduced nut consumption. Nuts, while good sources of micronutrients, also contain phytates and lectins. This makes them less than optimal sources of nutrients. Additionally, most nuts contain high quantities of omega-6 polyunsaturated fats that oxidize at the heat that would be required to break down lectins. Oxidized fats cause damage, and are therefore out. I do include peanuts here rather than with legumes because peanuts are more nutritionally similar to nuts.
  • No unhealthy oils and fats. This includes safflower oil, canola oil, corn oil, vegetable oil, soybean oil, peanut oil, and any other seed oil. All of these oils are chock full of polyunsaturated fats and require incredibly high heat and pressure to extract, making these oils essentially oxidized and rancid on the shelves.


  • All the vegetables I feel like eating. As a general guide, I will try to get as many colors in as I can, and I will include both raw and cooked preparations. Some nutrients are better absorbed from raw foods and others from cooked food, so mixing it up makes sense.
  • Plenty of protein. As the building blocks of just about everything in the body, getting plenty of protein is necessary for recovery. Since I also exercise, I will need protein to repair muscles. This means eating plenty of meat, since meat is the most easily digested source of protein. For the fat profiles of various meats I tend to favor animals in this order: Ruminants and Fish, Pork, Duck and Turkey, then Chicken.
  • Cholesterol. Cholesterol is not only the building block of all hormones, but is present in every cell membrane as a necessary regulator of cell permeability. This means eating plenty of eggs and organ meats. As a bonus, both of these foods are also rich in nutrients.
  • Post workout starchy vegetables and/or fruit. While I want to minimize insulin spikes, after large workouts it is vital to replenish the body’s glycogen stores. I plan to use sweet potatoes, squash, pumpkin, and the like rather than insulin spiking sugar.
  • Modest dairy intake. I abstain from pasteurized milk, but I do well on a modest diet of fermented or raw dairy. Cheese, buttermilk, and kefir are my favorites.
  • Healthy fats. Since I will only be ingesting mild carbohydrates, I will necessarily have to get a lot of my calories from fats. My primary fats will be olive oil, coconut oil, grass-fed butter, avocados (and avocado oil), and some lard. I will also consume plenty of fish to help balance the omega 3.

Finally, even though I have gained significant weight and would like to get lean again, I will not be practicing any calorie restriction when I eat. My body is damaged and in need of repair, and the last thing I need to do is pseudo-starve it. I can always get in shape again after I get healthy.

PART 2: Fitness. Fitness is an integral part of health with a slew of benefits. People who are fit tend to heal better, get sick less often, be happier, and more. While exercise is taxing on the body – depleting glycogen, releasing the stress hormone cortisol, etc. – occasional stress spikes are actually beneficial. What I can do is exercise in a way to minimize the negative effects and maximize the positive effects. I will, therefore, do the following:

  • Lift heavy weights in the gym 2-4 times a week. I will focus on compound movements like deadlifts, squats, and cleans as well as things like the benchpress, weighted pull-ups, and weighted dips.
  • Light cardio twice a week. Long distance running is one of the more stressful ways to get cardio. Luckily, I enjoy martial arts and hiking. I may also bike to work if the weather permits.
  • Sprinting 1-2 times a week. Sprinting has been shown to improve cardiovascular strength just as well as long distance running/biking/etc., but takes less time and is less stressful over time.
  • Yoga and fun activities when I feel like it. I’m a fan of vinyasa yoga for strength and flexibility, and I’m always looking for fun ways to just start moving.
  • Sleep until I’m well rested. We do a ton when we sleep. It is involved in hormone regulation, mental health, and body repair (important for me). Countless studies have shown that sleep just plain does a body good.

PART 3: Belief. I’m not actually religious, but I completely understand the need for it. Everyone needs something to believe in or life will be empty and seem pointless. Some people believe in religion and get their purpose, while others find a cause and dedicate themselves. My belief and my faith will be in myself. I have to believe that I can get healthy and take control, or I will fail to thrive. I have had issues with this in the past, so I have vowed to do the following:

  • I will not count calories. It leads me to be neurotic about food.
  • I will not step on the scale. I have obsessed over this number before and have a hard time grasping the concept that lower is not always better.
  • I will commit more to my hobbies. Being active leads to a better mindset, while drinking and watching youtube videos until you pass out is depressing.
  • I will sleep until I am well rested. See above.

So that is the plan. From here on out I will post something every day for at least 60 days. Posts will obviously vary in size depending on what I am talking about and how much I have to say about it. I will not be posting sob stories looking for sympathy, and I’m not fishing for pity; I got myself here, and I want to log a detailed account of my journey either to health, or death. I may not always be a font of ideas on what to write, and will probably neglect something that someone finds interesting. So feel free to email me at with questions, suggestions, or stories. Just make sure that if you want to remain anonymous to let me know.

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